Things have changed a LOT since my last post. Sorry that I haven't been active, to anyone who keeps up with this.

The guy I talked about in my last post? I'm over him. Thank goodness! Besides, he's dating one of my closest friends. They're adorable together, and it makes me happy that they're together.

My current love life? Dead. Well, almost. There is someone special, but he likes someone. Instead of moping, though, I'm encouraging him to do what he wants. If he's...

Okay okay, I'm sure it doesn't ALWAYS bite.

But for me, it does.

You see, I like this guy. He's kind, funny, cute, basically everything I look for in a guy. Unfortunately, I'm pretty sure he'll never see me as more than a friend. AND, to top it off, he's friends with this other guy who I don't get along with. *sigh*

And even though I know this, I still can't let go. Every guy I consider possibly liking, I always compare to him. It's driving me nuts. And...

You know what I just realized?

I don't know what I want to do with my life anymore! Strange, yes.

You see, most people in my grade already have it figured out. They know exactly which school to attend, what major they're going to have, what job they're going to get, how much money they will make, and so on. We're juniors (11th graders)

So, when people ask me where I'm going, what I'm gonna do, the answer usually is as follows: I'm not sure. *shrug*...